I'm listening to "Into Your Presence" and suddenly i started to sing my own song.. my life story.. kinda a bit long.. If you can listen to this song and read at the same time.. it will be great... if ya read reallie slowly, you might end juz nice with the song..

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Oh, Lord.. thanx you for tat breathe u gave me 18yrs ago.. thanx you for the soul and spirit u added to me... and ur plan to add me into ur book of life.. u watch over me carefully as grow up through out the yrs.. many time i felt awe about ur creation, but i didn't know u were there..

Until a yr ago, when my time finally came. u send a messager.. Even though i missed the chance, not juz once, not twice... but 3 time i abandon ur messager... But it was u, the author of grace and love, who earnestly encourage the messager and kept preparing the way for me.. For the forth time, ur messager invited me... and he brought me to ya house..

Though the people looked "nice".... but i juz wasn't prepare.... I grew denfensive and started to seal off.. But You were paitently seated beside me waiting for a chance to touch my heart.. Finally my nervous went to great for me to control. Then foolishly, i challenged You.... deep in my heart i said "if You are real... give me peace..." Then amazing, as i sat thru out the sermon... ur message bring peace.. ya, i felt defeated.

Not juz tat.. You defeat the thief within me, who have been stealing, killing and destroying my life(John 10:10a) and you set me free..... but again doubted when i heard ur calling.. my eyes were shut and my hands remain unraise.. It seems like the end, i had juz missed the window of life and my heart died and i secertly thinking of way to get out of the place..

No, You were not going to lose me.. you revealed urself to me! And when i open my eye, there stood Hope.. yes, there stood ur faithful angels, loving.. explaining to me.. i stood there in awe.. and a "yes" pop out of my mouth and right at tat moment all my strength left me.. but neither did i fell nor melted.. Instead, i felt a sweet victory.. Everyone rejoice! i was pulled out of darkness and into light.. into your light.. Pure joy... sweet happiness.... tears filled me... =)

As i walked down the aisle, i knew i'm close.. but there is one finally step.. though i didn't know what to do, but You ran to me(luke 15:20).. i was so so happy and i begin to ran to you like the Prodigal son.. i knew i was in Your arm.. Then i said my ever first prayer(luke 15:21)... your blood flowed and cleanses me, and your body united with me and i felt as one with you.. You have taken me into your presence, into your throne, and i longing to worship... Face to face, i was able to see You, and talk to You.. thanx you Father..

My life have never been the same.. i 'm was a lively person, but i was just lively... coz i have live my live to the full.. i have life in me!

John 10:10b - i have come that they may have life, and have it to the full..

* To my Father in Heaven," again and again u lifted me up, guiding me by your light, and give me strength thru the bread of life.. Filled me with ur spirit and energrise me with the courage of a thousand lion.. juz to let me stand in ur glory.. Thanx You.."

Oops my glasses felt a bit wet... =)